Ummmmm

Well. Hi.

It has been a while.

Okay. It has been a LONG while.  And a lot has happened.  And when I say a lot I mean A LOT!

Life came crashing down around us in October of 2012.  Richard was driving truck as a sub-contractor under his dad. His dad ... well ... lets just say life doesn't always give you lemonade when it gives you lemons. His dad isn't able to be a part of our lives right due to some unfortunate circumstances and thus life changed quickly.  When all this happened Rich had to find a new job. Which he did. Very quickly even.

Things were great. Until the week before Christmas.  Then my amazing husband, who had never been in an accident ONCE in his life, had two accidents. And I had one.  Neither of his were his fault. BUT being the CDL truck driver the cops cited him both times. BYE BYE job. And on Christmas Eve too. That was a tough pill to swallow.

But swallow it we did. And we smiled through a very difficult Christmas Day.

Oh. Another thing you should know. We had moved in with my father-in-law. Since he and my husband were on the road together all week we decided it was silly to be paying rent and him paying a mortgage. His house was empty all week. We thought we had worked out an agreement to stay in the house.

And then the bank took my father-in-laws home back.

Leaving us "homeless". And we moved in a week. Back to my parents home in Hurricane. Not where we wanted to be. I loved Riverdale. I thought that we were there for life. I cried. I cried a lot. And I prayed. I prayed a lot.

Rich got a job demonstrating Vitamix machines in California. He traveled. He traveled a lot. I cried and I cried some more. But there was more to it than just that. You see, back in October when life came crashing down I cried - uncontrollably. I despaired. I was in darkness. I couldn't breathe. I thought that it was just the drama and tragedy of what was happening with my husbands family.

And then I got sick.

I had heartburn. I couldn't eat. I felt miserable. But it was a miracle in the making. I was late having my menstrual cycle. And I was pregnant. This was something that we had been trying for. It had been over a year. Since I conceived extremely quickly and easily with our first three I had struggled with not getting pregnant. This was something that just the week before life gave us all of these lemons, I had finally turned it over to the Lord and told Him that I was content with my three children. I was finally emotionally stable and okay with the thought that we were done having children. Then I was pregnant. This should have been a happy time but I despaired. Yes, I was happy but I couldn't understand why the Lord saw fit to send us this little spirit during the most trying time of our married life.

But I understand a little bit now.

She is an angel. She makes me smile when nothing else can. When the darkness and depression close around me and I cry, she is my consolation.

Her name is Rebekah Celine Springer.  In Hebrew Rebekah means to "tie or bind together". Celine means "celestial or of the heavens". She literally is the tie that has bound of family into completeness. She is our heavenly gift.